'From Agnostic to Deacon: A Story of Hope and Conversion'
'From Agnostic to Deacon: A Story of Hope and Conversion'CHARLOTTE — Deacon Kevin Williams and his wife Theresa weren't always on the same page when it comes to practicing their faith. They are both cradle Catholics, but Theresa grew up in South Dakota and stayed close to the faith while Kevin grew up in Charlotte and drifted away from his faith in his teenage years.
They met while they were in the military serving as musicians, and married in June of 1978.
To look at this couple now, you would never guess that they were "unequally yoked" during the early years of their marriage when Theresa was attending Mass alone and praying for Kevin to come back to the Church.
"I prayed for him for about 12 years to go to church with me. Boy, did my prayers get answered!" Theresa says with a laugh.
"A couple of people have told us they have people in their lives that have gone astray (from their faith) and I've told them, 'Keep praying!'"
After coming back to the Church, Kevin kept receiving promptings to become a permanent deacon. He was ordained in 2006 and currently serves in ministry at Our Lady of the Assumption Church in Charlotte, as well as with the airport chaplaincy. He and Theresa have been active in Cursillo, in their parish choir and in faith formation at the diverse parish.
Theresa's book "From Agnostic to Deacon: A Story of Hope and Conversion" is a response to the prompting of the Holy Spirit to share their story with others. It was published in January.
"Just before I fell asleep (one night) I was given the title of the book by the Holy Spirit. I was like, 'Wow! OK, let me write this down!'" she recalls.
"It took me a while (to write the book) between various job situations. I would say eight years, but the last couple of years were the most productive," she noted.
In "From Agnostic to Deacon," she outlines their lives and their faith journey together, filled with all of its twists and turns.
She is candid about her mother-in-law's mental illness, the couple's struggle with infertility and how they see God uses all things for good along the way.
In addition to this recent book, Theresa has also written articles for the permanent deacons' newsletter and other articles, and she regularly blogs as well.
Recently, the permanent deacon community asked her and Kevin to take over "The Servant" newsletter to rejuvenate it for the permanent diaconate.
She had never done anything like that before, but "slowly and surely I'm improving," she says.
"It has been quite amazing to look back through our journey together and reflect on the power of prayer and God working in our lives," Kevin adds.
"This experience has helped us appreciate how God has been preparing us for things we never would have ex-pected. God has placed people in our lives at just the right time, with just the right gifts. Their presence has been a gift from God."
— SueAnn Howell, senior reporter
More online
At www.fromagnostictodeacon.com: Read Theresa Williams' blog about faith and daily life
At www.amazon.com: The Williams' new book "From Agnostic to Deacon: A Story of Hope and Conversion" is availa-ble in paperback for purchase. (ISBN-10: 0692337660)
Pictured: At its West Coast premiere, "Homeless" took home the Grand Jury Award for best film at the 18th Dances With Films Festival in Los Angeles. Pictured are (from left) writer/director Clay Riley Hassler, producer Tif Hassler, Michael McDowell (Gosh) and Hosanna Gourley (Krystal). (Photo provided by Jean Souders, Dances With Films)CLEMMONS — Michael McDowell, a recent graduate of Bishop McGuinness High School, is a musician. He plays the guitar and has spent many hours in a recording studio. Over the past few months, he's also spent a fair amount of time on the film festival circuit – but not as a musician. As an actor.
In what is his first acting gig, McDowell has been cast as the lead role of an independent film produced and shot in Winston-Salem that has been earning rave reviews from critics.
"Homeless" is based on a true story about an 18-year-old named Josh who endures the soul-crushingly empty days and lonely nights living on the streets and in homeless shelters. Like a lot of kids his age, Gosh's life is marked by one step forward, two steps back, but when his life "steps back" there's no one there to catch him. No family to pick him up, no home to return to.
The film, which had its East Coast premiere at the RiverRun International Film Festival in Winston-Salem, has won outstanding reviews both for the film's depiction of teen homelessness and in particular for McDowell's performance. "Homeless" recently had its West Coast premiere at the Dances With Films festival in Los Angles and took the coveted Grand Jury Award for best feature film. That's pretty amazing for a first time actor who had no expectations when he went to the casting call, of anything other than supporting his older sister Megan for her audition and maybe landing a part as an extra.
"I was pretty surprised when they called me back," McDowell said. "They called me back two times to read with other people."
Clay Riley Hassler, the film's writer and director, and his wife, producer Tif Hassler, said when McDowell first walked in to the auditions they dismissed him as looking too young for the part. (McDowell was 16 at the time.)
"He still had quite a bit of youth in his face... but then when he read he was fantastic. We put him through some pretty rigorous call-backs," Clay Hassler said.
Both Hasslers agreed that when McDowell is on screen, "he just shines."
So, the Hasslers said, they took a chance and cast an untested actor to carry a film that for the most part, would rest entirely on that actor's ability to draw people into a world they don't really want to believe exists: teen homelessness. They told McDowell to start growing out his hair and tell his mom they were going to dye it blond and, by the way, give him a lip ring.
The primary shooting was done over 15 days on the streets of Winston-Salem and at Samaritan Ministries Samaritan Inn Shelter, a homeless shelter for men organized by five downtown Winston-Salem churches.
McDowell had been to the shelter before with his father to deliver pies for Thanksgiving, but he hadn't gone inside. When he entered the shelter the first time for shooting, he said, he just felt an overwhelming sense of sadness.
"People there... they had no place to live. No place to live... and really nothing to call their own."
"At the shelter," he said, "you have to leave in the morning after breakfast and can come back at night around six or seven o'clock. In between, you're just on the street."
The staff and clients at Samaritan Ministries knew why they were there and supported the film project, he added. "The people you see in the background, all the extras – they are really homeless and they let us film them."
Before the film, McDowell said, he didn't really think about young people his age being homeless. But he came to see that "in the ways that matter the most, we're the same."
Wet Paint FilmsThe Hasslers agreed. They believed the misconceptions they both had about homeless people are probably shared by a lot of people.
"At least for me, I had certain visual stereotypes growing up, in my mind," Clay Hassler said. "The panhandlers on the corner asking you for money or just sitting on a bench somewhere just watching people. So, when the real Gosh came to us, when we met him, that stereotype just got flipped on its head."
The real Gosh (whose name is spelled Josh) was articulate and incredibly positive, said Hassler.
The Hasslers met him at downtown Centenary United Methodist Church, the church they were attending while living in Winston-Salem. One day, Josh attended their Sunday school class and they became friends. They spent a lot of time talking to him, learning about his life, his experiences. Like many homeless teens, Josh had lost a lot in his 18 years. His grandmother raised him; his father was in prison and his mother was missing from his life for a long time. When his grandmother died, there were no other relatives to help him and no place for him to live. He was dropped off at a homeless shelter by the landlord who evicted him.
Josh talked to the Hasslers about writing a memoir but they were ready to make their first feature film. Josh, the Hasslers said, readily agreed to telling his story through film.
"Josh was totally on-board with us doing a film," Clay Hassler said, "but I don't think we realized the impact it would have on people."
"For Tif and I, our faith is very important to us and if you're a person of faith, this movie will resonate with you. We hope the film moves people to take action."
He added that without the help of their church, Centenary United Methodist, they would never have been able to shoot the film or finish the postproduction.
"We have submitted 'Homeless' to several more festivals in late summer and throughout the fall," Tif Hassler said. "We hope to continue to bring it to cities across the nation and eventually we hope to pick up distribution to get it into the hearts and homes of everyone."
McDowell thinks young people particularly would be interested in seeing "Homeless," as long as they keep an open mind.
"My age group is not always accepting or open," he said. "People need to have a bigger perspective and not just live in their own bubble...they need to recognize their fellow human beings." More than anything, he said, he hopes the film's impact on people will be lasting. The movie seems to really connect with people, he said and that enables them to see the person behind the homeless label, to see the individual child of God. That recognition, he said, has the potential to make a difference in the world.
"The movie isn't just a bunch of events unfolding on-screen," he said. "It's more than that. Those things that are happening, those experiences, events, are happening to someone – someone like me or you or anybody."
The important question then becomes, what can each of us do about it, he said.
"Hopefully, that's what people will come out of the theater thinking. Hopefully, they're thinking: What can I do to help someone?"
— Annette K. Tenny, correspondent
More
At homelessthefilm.com: View a trailer and learn more about the film "Homeless" shot in Winston-Salem.